They say God gives us what we need and answers our prayers. But Lord, why am I always the one left behind? They say I am a heartbreaker. But is it always me who gets my heart broken? I asked for a man to love. I begged for it. Why am I the one left hurt? Is it a sign that I don’t deserve it? But why? What have I done? Lord. I beg you again. Let a man love me. A man who pleases me and whom I please. A man who will choose me over and over. A man who will put me first. You gave me E. A man who made me believe it was possible. But why is it that he abandoned me too. Left me broken. God. Please. I can’t do it anymore. Make E. love me again. I can’t live this life this lonely anymore. I gave him so much. My heart, my body, my soul. Please God. Return this man to me. Make him love me: truly, honestly, sincerely. Make him be committed to me. And please let me stop the quest now. I’m done looking around. I’m done searching. Lord, please answer my pleas. May E. come back into my life to be my boyfriend, fiancé, future husband, and father of my future children. May he fill the emptiness in my heart. May you turn what seems to be a mistake into a trial for a blessing. Lord, I put my trust and hope in your hands. May the Virgin Mary pray for me and ease your heart into making my wish come true. May Saint Rita, pray for the Lord, your son, to turn this tragedy into a miracle. May Saint Antoine contribute to turning E.’s heart towards me. Lord, please bless me with this. Amen.